Earlier this week I was faced with a dilemma. To be perfectly honest it wasn’t that much of a dilemma for me. My 2 1/2 year old daughter,Iliana, was accepted to public preschool. Although I would love the luxury of having some available time for myself, I couldn’t bare the thought of (already) sending her away. She is ready, no doubt about that. When I asked her if she wanted to stay home with mom or go to school, she crashed my heart and immediately replied: School. So, it is not really about her having separation anxiety. It is about me, wanting to hold on to her.
I always felt a little bit ‘guilty’ that I really never had alone quality time with her. Her brother (who she is absolutely crazy about) had the first two and a half years of his life my full and undivided attention. Then, she came along and he was always around.
So I have decided to postpone preschool for one more year. What’s the rush anyway? Being a stay at home mom is all about that. Giving her a little bit of extra love, cuddling and affection. I am looking forward to spending our mornings together, having some one on one time. Just us, girls, for just a little while longer.