I know I don’t. This is as honest as I will ever be. I am spoiled. I have a great husband, two wonderful (I’ ll focus on the wonderful for this post) HEALTHY children, a lovely home, I live in a beautiful country (I’ ll focus on just beautiful for now) and still there are days that I call extremely difficult. Huh, I do have some nerve, don’t I?
I wish it were as easy as switching on a thankful mode while moaning about everyday ‘challenges’, and then something happens and it hits me. In the face. Like today for example. I came down with a stomach flu or something and I have been feeling like shit all day, if it weren’t for my lifesaver husband N. I don’t know who would have taken care of the children while I spent the whole day miserable in bed! It made me realize: Why do I take it for granted that I am healthy and feel fine most of the days? Why do I take it for granted that my children are generally healthy? Why? Lately I have been coming across a lot of real life stories where parents are struggling to keep their cancer stricken children alive, where they have lost one of their children in a horrible accident or their spouses at a very young age. I swear, this is my worst nightmare. I hope, and I know this is as selfish as it gets, that it will never happen to us. To this family. And I also know that I have very little control over this and this terrifies the hell out of me.
Why do we tend to appreciate things when they are gone? Why can’t we appreciate them while they are still there?
Life is unfair. This is the only reality.