Mom, what’s wrong? Are you crying? Are you upset? Are you having a nervous breakdown? little Iliana fired at me while I was blowing my runny nose.
Is this the first thing that comes to the mind of my 3 year old (OK, 4 in January) daughter when she sees me blowing my nose?? Is it more logical for her to assume that I am upset rather than simply having a cold?
What’s wrong with this picture?
The truth is that the last couple of months have been quite challenging. Both kids have been trying to adjust to the new school realities and so have I.
Yiannis started first grade and realized how much he loved playing as opposed to sitting still in a classroom. He returns home and lets it all out on his
punching bag mom. His frustrations, his worries, his mood swings. The whole deal.
Then comes Iliana. She enjoyed the first week at kindergarten. The Monday after she informed me that she has had enough of school and that she prefers staying home with me. Once she realized this was not the case it all started to go down the drain…My little miss sunshine slowly turned into a depressed shriveled little cloud. She stopped eating, she stopped sleeping, she started screaming at nights, she started complaining about headaches, stomachaches, tiredness. She has become miserable. Remember how I was reluctant to put her into kindergarten in the first place??
Maybe it’s not them, it’s just me. Plain and simple burned out me.
I am not coping with the whole parenting thing well right now. The guild trips are coming and going. The once decisive T has become vulnerable and self doubting. Should I keep her home for one more year? Is this really worth it? What’s the point anyway if she is not enjoying herself? What happened to our generation who only went to kindergarten for a year, when we were 5?
One thing is certain (besides that I love my kids to pieces). Whoever decides to have more kids than one, OK two, is a HERO in my eyes!
Until next time